I am God (Draft - In Editing Process)

The Stele of Revealing

The god Hadit has always been a central figure in the spiritual philosophy of Thelema. You can see his image as the winged solar disk underneath the arch of the god Nuit in The Stele of Revealing. According to my astronomical research I've discovered that the god Hadit is actually a Red Dwarf star.

There was a time when I was stricken with a terrible depression and wanted to seek help from God himself. I tried out various magickal rituals like The Bornless One from Liber Samekh accompanied by use of  The Bible. 

There is place on [Edited] where I used to go to look at the sky and relax.

Around 2008 when I was hanging out on my roof roughly around the hours of 3:00 AM (I have a tendency of staying up all night and sleeping during the day.) I decided to try and talk to the sky to ask for help.

I was on my roof saying things like "God, Nuit, or Hadit or whoever you might be, I don't know, maybe Jesus or Jehovah perhaps, I really want to ask you for help because I just can't seem to understand the meaning of life... creation, why are we here, how did we get here what created us, why is life so unfair? I need guidance... who created me? Why did they create me? I mean the mistakes I've made are only of course out of simple curiosity and things like that, but I figured it's only natural to try and explore your world and try out a lot of different things, I mean it's human nature. Who can I really look forward to and trust? Who is the real... creator? Are you out there? I need help... I can't seem to understand anything that's going on in my life right now... I figured I'd look forward to you for help..." It was something along the lines of that, I remember, I'd always say things of that nature always trying to seek out God to try and ask him what the meaning of life is and who too look forward to for guidance.

I remember after laying down on my roof for a while and trying to speak to the sky for a bit I decided to get up to try and do a Qabbalistic Cross just as a form of marking the occasion to seal off my little ceremony. It was right after that I saw a shooting star around the North-Eastern part of the sky.

I then walked to the center of the square part of the roof to look up when I all of a sudden saw a Red Star appear in the center of the starry globe of the sky that said "I am God."

I remember thinking right after I saw it flash in the sky thinking something like "He exists! God does exist! He exists!"